Pretty Destroyed....

So I just got back from my first day "back in the saddle" and it was one of the worst experiences ever. Not from the running but from people. I had some time before I have to go babysit tonight and it is super nice out so I told myself I HAD TO GO TODAY! I've been so freaking busy that I need to make some time and just go so that's just what I did today and I feel like I'm going to cry....

I'm out at the City Park just starting to walk my little warm up before diving in to my running when a car drives by and a guy yells right at me, "RESOLUTION TIME IS OVER!" And I was just really shocked and taken aback by the rudeness this young man decided to give to me. I just kept going and thinking in my head that I'm not going to let this stop me and this is why I'm out here to get back in shape and its not a resolution, its a lifestyle change. Well, this didn't happen just once it happened another time! I had started to run and was about to finish my first set and another car strolled by and this young man rolled down his window and yelled, "SPANDEX ARE NOT FOR FAT PEOPLE, GO HOME!" I wear spandex capri pants because they are the only workout pants I have that will stay up, haha, while I run and I wear really big shirts that don't make me like I look stuffed into my clothes, haha. But anyway, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE! I immediately felt like a piece of crap and just walked the rest of the way home, I didn't even finish my workout because I was so worried someone else was going to destroy me some more.

So now that my motivation and self-esteem have seemed to disappear I'm trying to think of ways to get around this. Like I said earlier, I know that I shouldn't let these things bother me because some people are just plain rude, but it does. I'm just really put off and really rethinking some decisions about training. Right now I'm thinking I should maybe just stick with my diet plan and an at home workout routine for the next couple months until graduation or until I feel like I can go workout outside without being heckled. I still want to do a half marathon badly but I might just have to push it back a little. I feel a little disappointed and sad but once I find something that is going to work for me, so that I'm not worried about what other people say, I'll be on my way once again.

I'm sickly

So I'm pretty sick. I have been sick since last Friday with a sinus infection. I didn't know what was wrong until I finally made it into the doctor's office this afternoon. I tried to just tough it out and let it pass but to no avail. I am now on some antibiotics and feel a tiny bit better but still feel super crappy. Hopefully this passes soon so that I can get up and out there again. I've wasted so much time already and this just isn't helping. I guess I'll start over again as soon as this all goes away.

Completely Off Track....

So I've definitely fallen off. With school starting and trying to find a job and finishing up applying for grad schools I have very much slacked off. I am not proud of this at all! I can't believe its been 2 weeks that I haven't run!!! I wasn't even that far on my track about a month in and then I let myself get too caught up in life and laziness, plain and simple...LAZY!

I have to take the GRE on Monday so the better part of my weekend will be spent in the library studying. This doesn't get in my way to make it to the rec this weekend. The library doesn't stay open past 5 for some reason on the weekends this past year and I'm sure I won't to be in there that long anyway. I need to get back on track and kind of start over or try to start where I left off. I have nothing to do tomorrow but an interview after 730 so I'm thinking I'll get my butt there when I wake up and settle my mind back into running mode.

It's Been Awhile

So it's been a bit of time since I've last posted. Christmas break is coming to an end and it's been a really relaxing and fun couple of weeks. I have been running but I'm not up to where I thought I would be due to the crazy and hectic schedule of holiday family events, friend get togethers, and an awesome New Years Eve. I should be on week 4 on my training but I've extended my week 2 for a couple weeks. I am getting comfortable with my week 2 training and feel that after a few more sessions I should be able to get to week 3. With the help of my best friend Casey and her parents private gym I was able to run regardless of snow on the days that I could. Casey has been a great workout partner and her parents are sweethearts for letting me use their gym for free. I appreciate their generosity tremendously and know that they believe in my goal and want me to accomplish it.
So with this crazy schedule and seeing how my body has been getting stronger, slowly but surely, I am thinking that I am going to set my goal to be reached by next fall. I don't want to put any pressure on myself or hurt myself in the process. The half marathon is the overall goal but getting back into shape is the most important thing right now. I want to be safe and successful. I'm hoping that when I get back up to school I'll be able to work a little faster and regularly. Getting back on some sort of schedule is going to help a lot.

Thanks to everyone who has wished me well and given me even more motivation and confidence!

Long Day...

Today was very productive and long. I ended up having to rush back home yesterday to get some grad school transcript stuff sent off from the juco back there and had to stay the night. This morning I had to race back to get to school so that I could get to the library and watch 3 films before my final at 4 today. I got back in like an hour and a half and was able to get to the library around 11am. I was on campus today from 11 til 4:30. UGH.

To Do List~
-Watch 3 Films
-Get Transcripts Sent Off
-Lunch
-Get Letters of Rec from two people
-Cram some more studying in
-Final
-Go Run!

I got home after my final and was about to pass out. I was so tired and not motivated at all. I made myself get dressed and ready to go to the rec but decided to lay in my bed after. The warmth from my goose down comforter was very inviting. Miles, my cat, curled up next to me and was ready for a nap also. After about 20 mins of laying in there I hurled myself up to go put my shoes on but ended up on the couch. After another 20 mins of slumping on the couch I decided I better go to the rec and get this over with....

I got to the rec and it wasn't as packed as most days because more and more people are going home for break. Got on the treadmill and was all ready to go. I was super excited and surprised with myself during my running. The first minute I ran I could actually breathe and ended up recovering really quickly! The rest of the workout was just smooth sailing! I still am scared about next week's running because its gets amped up another minute, but I'm hoping that two more days like this gets me ready for the next step.

Jello Legs

So I know I'm way out of shape and expected even the simple walk/run program to be a bit challenging and it was. This was the first day of the first week. It was like 18 degrees today and getting colder as the day went on. My parking lot is ice and I can just imagine that the park, even if I braved the cold, would still have been not safe. I decided I had to go to the dreaded rec. Because I have a plan and I'm sticking to it, no matter how bad I didn't want to go. I also found out today that not only do we have to pay rec fees of $300 bucks in our tuition, regardless of if we use it or not, they also make you have a parking pass between the hours of 7am-4pm, super lame. I was going to go earlier and just park at a meter but my headphones broke so I had to go to Wal-Mart to get some. I needed my headphones, my music helps me drown out my worries about going to the gym and all the crazy things I think people are going to think about some fat kid coming to work out. I finally made it out around 7pm and it was still packed with people. My friend told me to go around 8 or 9 when it kind of calms down but I couldn't wait any longer. So I found a treadmill with no problems, which was a relief, and just looked at it very confused. All treadmills or any machine are different from other gyms and it took me like 5 mins to figure out what buttons I needed to push to get my 21 mins on the screen and to get going. Today I am starting the first week of the walk/run program, like I mentioned earlier, and I'm glad I'm starting out small. All I have to do this week is walk 6 mins and run 1 min and repeat that three times. The first minute wasn't bad at all except for the fact that my pants would not stay up! So annoying! HAHA! I was worried about my apparel because I just want to be like Biggest Loser and wear and huge shirt and my spandex capri pants...I think that's what I'm going to have to do now since my pants are all the same and wont stay up and I don't want to deal with that. The second minute that I ran was a little more challenging and I could definitely feel how out of shape I was. I wasn't sweating very bad but my heart rate was very high and I knew I was working my body pretty hard for my level of performance. The last minute was something that I dreaded but knew I had to do it because if I didn't do it then I'd let myself slip or cheat on it again, I cannot let the happen. I was very elated that I was done and proud of myself for getting the first session over with. I also wanted to go lift after but there was no room. Huge guys, who look super juiced up, were crowding any space that was available. It's like they were protecting their weights...haha! My legs felt like Jello when I stepped off the treadmill and I was hoping if I took it slow I wouldn't fall or my knees wouldn't go out when I went back to the machine to wipe it down. I was successful at not looking like an idiot. Speaking of knees, my knee was totally fine. I could feel where it hurt and when I ran I could feel something was wrong with it but it didn't hurt when I ran or after so I'm very happy with that. It's still bruised and I'm going to ice it after I get done with this post but I'm just so glad I was able to run through the hurt.

Tomorrow's Day 2 and I'm really looking forward to the end of the week when this gets a bit easier.

Drunk Guy + Melted Snow Slush = Me With A Swollen Bruised Knee

So I'm supposed to start my running tomorrow and I have been super psyched about getting to this point and then last night happened. Walking in the Ville to the Purple Pig, about to cross the street, some drunk guy can't figure out how to walk and slips on some snow slush and decides that I'm going to not let him fall. He ends up pushing/pulling me down to the ground with him and I slammed my knee into the pavement..OUCH! It hurt so bad the rest of the night, I thought it was bleeding but couldn't look because my pants were tucked into my boots. I get home all soaked and hurting and just decide to go to bed. It hurt all through the night to where I cant even lay on it. I wake up to it throbbing and look at it, the whole bottom of my knee is black and blue. Not horribly swollen but hurts like no ones business. I'm still going to try to run tomorrow regardless because I have a deadline and I need to meet it. At least the running isn't super intense or anything but I know its probably going to hurt. Lame.