Pretty Destroyed....

So I just got back from my first day "back in the saddle" and it was one of the worst experiences ever. Not from the running but from people. I had some time before I have to go babysit tonight and it is super nice out so I told myself I HAD TO GO TODAY! I've been so freaking busy that I need to make some time and just go so that's just what I did today and I feel like I'm going to cry....

I'm out at the City Park just starting to walk my little warm up before diving in to my running when a car drives by and a guy yells right at me, "RESOLUTION TIME IS OVER!" And I was just really shocked and taken aback by the rudeness this young man decided to give to me. I just kept going and thinking in my head that I'm not going to let this stop me and this is why I'm out here to get back in shape and its not a resolution, its a lifestyle change. Well, this didn't happen just once it happened another time! I had started to run and was about to finish my first set and another car strolled by and this young man rolled down his window and yelled, "SPANDEX ARE NOT FOR FAT PEOPLE, GO HOME!" I wear spandex capri pants because they are the only workout pants I have that will stay up, haha, while I run and I wear really big shirts that don't make me like I look stuffed into my clothes, haha. But anyway, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE! I immediately felt like a piece of crap and just walked the rest of the way home, I didn't even finish my workout because I was so worried someone else was going to destroy me some more.

So now that my motivation and self-esteem have seemed to disappear I'm trying to think of ways to get around this. Like I said earlier, I know that I shouldn't let these things bother me because some people are just plain rude, but it does. I'm just really put off and really rethinking some decisions about training. Right now I'm thinking I should maybe just stick with my diet plan and an at home workout routine for the next couple months until graduation or until I feel like I can go workout outside without being heckled. I still want to do a half marathon badly but I might just have to push it back a little. I feel a little disappointed and sad but once I find something that is going to work for me, so that I'm not worried about what other people say, I'll be on my way once again.