Pretty Destroyed....

So I just got back from my first day "back in the saddle" and it was one of the worst experiences ever. Not from the running but from people. I had some time before I have to go babysit tonight and it is super nice out so I told myself I HAD TO GO TODAY! I've been so freaking busy that I need to make some time and just go so that's just what I did today and I feel like I'm going to cry....

I'm out at the City Park just starting to walk my little warm up before diving in to my running when a car drives by and a guy yells right at me, "RESOLUTION TIME IS OVER!" And I was just really shocked and taken aback by the rudeness this young man decided to give to me. I just kept going and thinking in my head that I'm not going to let this stop me and this is why I'm out here to get back in shape and its not a resolution, its a lifestyle change. Well, this didn't happen just once it happened another time! I had started to run and was about to finish my first set and another car strolled by and this young man rolled down his window and yelled, "SPANDEX ARE NOT FOR FAT PEOPLE, GO HOME!" I wear spandex capri pants because they are the only workout pants I have that will stay up, haha, while I run and I wear really big shirts that don't make me like I look stuffed into my clothes, haha. But anyway, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE! I immediately felt like a piece of crap and just walked the rest of the way home, I didn't even finish my workout because I was so worried someone else was going to destroy me some more.

So now that my motivation and self-esteem have seemed to disappear I'm trying to think of ways to get around this. Like I said earlier, I know that I shouldn't let these things bother me because some people are just plain rude, but it does. I'm just really put off and really rethinking some decisions about training. Right now I'm thinking I should maybe just stick with my diet plan and an at home workout routine for the next couple months until graduation or until I feel like I can go workout outside without being heckled. I still want to do a half marathon badly but I might just have to push it back a little. I feel a little disappointed and sad but once I find something that is going to work for me, so that I'm not worried about what other people say, I'll be on my way once again.

I'm sickly

So I'm pretty sick. I have been sick since last Friday with a sinus infection. I didn't know what was wrong until I finally made it into the doctor's office this afternoon. I tried to just tough it out and let it pass but to no avail. I am now on some antibiotics and feel a tiny bit better but still feel super crappy. Hopefully this passes soon so that I can get up and out there again. I've wasted so much time already and this just isn't helping. I guess I'll start over again as soon as this all goes away.

Completely Off Track....

So I've definitely fallen off. With school starting and trying to find a job and finishing up applying for grad schools I have very much slacked off. I am not proud of this at all! I can't believe its been 2 weeks that I haven't run!!! I wasn't even that far on my track about a month in and then I let myself get too caught up in life and laziness, plain and simple...LAZY!

I have to take the GRE on Monday so the better part of my weekend will be spent in the library studying. This doesn't get in my way to make it to the rec this weekend. The library doesn't stay open past 5 for some reason on the weekends this past year and I'm sure I won't to be in there that long anyway. I need to get back on track and kind of start over or try to start where I left off. I have nothing to do tomorrow but an interview after 730 so I'm thinking I'll get my butt there when I wake up and settle my mind back into running mode.

It's Been Awhile

So it's been a bit of time since I've last posted. Christmas break is coming to an end and it's been a really relaxing and fun couple of weeks. I have been running but I'm not up to where I thought I would be due to the crazy and hectic schedule of holiday family events, friend get togethers, and an awesome New Years Eve. I should be on week 4 on my training but I've extended my week 2 for a couple weeks. I am getting comfortable with my week 2 training and feel that after a few more sessions I should be able to get to week 3. With the help of my best friend Casey and her parents private gym I was able to run regardless of snow on the days that I could. Casey has been a great workout partner and her parents are sweethearts for letting me use their gym for free. I appreciate their generosity tremendously and know that they believe in my goal and want me to accomplish it.
So with this crazy schedule and seeing how my body has been getting stronger, slowly but surely, I am thinking that I am going to set my goal to be reached by next fall. I don't want to put any pressure on myself or hurt myself in the process. The half marathon is the overall goal but getting back into shape is the most important thing right now. I want to be safe and successful. I'm hoping that when I get back up to school I'll be able to work a little faster and regularly. Getting back on some sort of schedule is going to help a lot.

Thanks to everyone who has wished me well and given me even more motivation and confidence!